my first valetine's day with my dear~~

this is my first valentine's day having partner...but is husband dy not lover sweet sweet boyfriend...haiz~~never mind however is jus married also like long long time ago being nothing suprise to me >>>haiz====moody > bored > sad > angry ==but no use just feel it myself and cant tell share with anyone~~~~.........

IF~~~~

if i can choose ,can i choose Yu be baby father....!!!!????
maybe now my life will better a bit~~~now not too bad jus is ok ok only~~~~^^^^
how are Yu now~~i really very miss him , i think also hav a bit love him.......he in my heart space are large and heavy then my husband Ivan~~~~~~~~~~
if everything still hav chance `you duo hao' ^^^^
now in my mind all also YU YU YU YU YU YU YU YU YU YU YU~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
everything also same not yet get it before all also intrested =======haiz=====
'Yu' you really make me very confuse and missing you, where u going.......???????
where are you.......????????? you already forget me dy~~~~~!!!!!!you already hav new girlfriend>>>>????
dun hav u beside me i really lost myself>>>>>>>>>i really miss YU so much~~~~
can i get you back....???????
i know is impossible thing to get you back,coz what i choose already cant change back and return~~~~~~~~~~

start new year new life~~~~

wan start the new life dy~~~~become a mummy and wife~~~~this cal life life~~~~~
life is cant control by own hand , god will arrange to us dy>>>>>>
everything in our life god are already set up when we both.......we just wan to learn what we dun know and settle all the problem and question will happen in our life<<<<~~~~~!!!!but in our life hav happy and fun also not jus trouble and unhappy thing^^^^
life hav many level when we start every age also start another class to learn at the age what will happen and matter to know the answer~~~~
that call life life~~~{ fan yan fan yan }